| Boyz Are Really Confusing |
[Jan. 18th, 2005|04:42 pm] |
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ok there was this guy in my america per. class and wow he is really hott let me till u and like he end up sitting next to me for like half of the semester and for that whole 5 week he would like tickle me and like take my id and what i thought was flirting. and so i got all exited and thought hey maybe a hott guy likes me for once in my life!!! but i guess i was really wrong becuase i am talking to him right now as we speak. and i was like ya it's my birthday soon and he is like o-really!!! and he's like am i going to be invited to your party and i'm like sure if i have one!i was like well do u got any ideas? and he was like well first u need to get kissed!!! ya easier said then done. and he was like i bet a lot of guys would kiss u. and i was like, like wow and he's like umm... a lot of guys u know then he's like a would if i liked u and i didn't have a girl friend!!!
A GIRL FRIEND god i feel really stupid now and i thought he like me boy was i wrong!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF WHEN EVER I THINK I LIKE SOMEONE AND JUST MAYBE THEY MIGHT LIKE ME BAKE I FIND OUT THEY HAVE A GIRL FRIEND!!!! |
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[Dec. 29th, 2004|02:08 am] |
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god!!!!!!!! i don't know what is wrong with me i've just been sooo depressed and stressed out lately!!!!!!! i really miss one of my best friends chelsea and i just feel like i really need to talk to her.... i think i'm just jealous and feel unwanted because my best friend britt seems like when ever we hang out she always talks about danielle and i can't wait till she gets home and danielle this and danielle that (and don't get me wrong i love danielle to death) but i just feel like she who much rather hang out with danielle then me. and i and just hate how britt's like dude jordan likes me and she keeps telling all this guys that like her and i know she doesn't mean it but it makes me all depressed because i have nobody!!! britt is beautiful and out goin and i'm just kind of average looking and kind of shy so of course everyone loves her and i'm just kind of stuck in her shadow.... god ever since i can remember i have always been stuck in some one shadow in elementary school it was danielle and now it's britt... i just hate it i wish people would just like me for me and actually have a guy call just to talk.
i'm also really depressed because it seems like almost everybody has somebody and i just see them together and i just wished it was me!!! god and one of my best guy friend has a girl friend now just when i relized i kind of like him!!!! and i have a feeling new years is going to suck cuz i'll be alone or maybe go to cody's if he ever invites me... which i don't know if i even want to go because i will see even more couples together and it will probably make me even more depressed!!!i don't know i guess u could say my life f***ing sucks right now and what even worse is it's over the holiday's!!!!!!!!!!! |
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[Nov. 19th, 2004|06:33 pm] |
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god ok it's been 2 days and my friend brittany (well i think she is still my friend)is mad at me and won't talk to me and i have no idea what to do!!!ok what happened was she was sick from school one day and then the next day in first period she didn't say one word to me and then when the bell rang she rushed off and didn't wait for me like she usually does.so when she was standing there waiting from jordan bye his locker which is right by mine so then i stoped and asked her if she what made and me and she gave me this dirty look and i was just like what the heck did i do!!! then i was like what's wrong and she's like nothing and gave me this look that she always does when she is mad.God i'm just sooo... comfused and frustrated i don't know what to do!!!!!!!!! |
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[Sep. 19th, 2004|10:01 pm] |
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Wow i have not writen in hear for the longest time and soo much has happened to me in the last few weeks!!! first of all i started going out with jeff like almost two weeks now. then like 3 days ago this guy in my math class that i have only none for like a 2 weeks ask me to go to his sisters wedding with him, and he asked me in a note.
frist things first jeff my boyfriend!!! wow that is really hard to think about i am soooo not used to having a boyfriend!!!! i don't know why but i don't really know if i like it too much nothing against jeff or anything but i kind of miss being single:(
i don't know it's just weird because it's almost like jeff is scared of me because he like doesn't talk that much when he is around me or else when he does it's almost forced.i don't know maybe it's just me but i want a guy that can be himself around me!!! i don't know i think i'm going to give it alittle time and see if anything changes other wise i'm thinking about braking up with him because i don't know to me that he is better as a really good friend then a boyfriend. but the thing i am scared of is that him and his friends will hate me if i brake up with him!!! i don't know what to do i am really scared and confused right now!!!
then there was the wedding thing which was really weird!!! ok there is this guy name jeremy and he is like half of my clases, and i just met him this year. well anyways on thursday i was sitting in English and this guy like hand me a not and is say(my sister is getting married this weekend and he was like i know i should be asking u this in a note but i was wondering if u wanted to go with me. he was like not as a date or anything just as friends.)dude it was sooo weird i had no idea what to say i mean come on what could u say to that!!!so i just said i had a cc meet which i thought i was running in but to find out i wasn't later so i really didn't ly to him but ya lets just say it's the weirdest thing somebody as ever asked me!!!!!!!!!!\ |
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| XC MEET |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|10:16 pm] |
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ya today i had a my first cross country meet of the year. and got 12th place and my time was 19:24 which is pretty good for not being in shape.dude it was like raining the whole time and i was like soaked!!!then on our way home we got pizza mmm it was soo good. but the bad thing was that our bus broke down and we had to catch a ride with rhs and the bus was soo full that we to sit 3 to a seat and i had to sit on the crack between the seat... and my butt fell asleep it wasn't cool lol. the really weird thing was that rhs people didn't say one word the whole way back it was kind of weird:/.lol and we where like talkin none stop heheh.
then yesterday i went to see without a paddle with katlin, britt,kayla,hana(i think that's her name:/), and jeff. i thought that movie was really funny so i suggest seein it if u want a good laugh.
then after the movie we went to cold stone and got ice cream mmm mmm good!!!!!!!! |
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| PoEm Of ThE dAy |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|06:38 pm] |
The boy's I like
Don't like me back
Then the boy's that like me
I don't like
Yes, It's weird
But it's a fact
It's true
It's been way to long
What have I been doing wrong
And I don't know what to do
When all I can do is think about you
BY LAURA LICHTY
***I'M GOING TO START DOING POEMS EVERYDAY SO I HOPE U ENJOY THEM THEY DON'T ALL DEEL WITH ME IT'S JUST PRITTY MUCH WHATEVER COMES TO MIND*** |
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| BoY tRuBbLeS |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|12:37 am] |
frist of all with my boy trubbles there is this guy named trent and like supposively he really likes me but the problem is i don't think i like him like that :/ and i don't know what to do i mean he is a nice guy but he is just not my type and i don't know why? and i'm afraid he might ask me out and i won't know what to say i don't want to hurt him:/ :( i guess u could say he don't give me that warm fuzzy feeling when ever i see him or as me and chelsea would call it the butterflies!!! god why does love have to be soo difficult. it was just weird like when i was cuddleing with him it wasn't special like my heart didn't drop when he held my hand and i don't get all exited when he calls me. all i can remember about that day was britt,kayla, and katlin telling me to move in closer and then when he put his arm around me they were like how crute then all of a sudden i hear katlin say "ya cuz he can't do any better and her and kayla both started laughing"...and when she said that to kayla i just wanted to be like what,what the fuck is your problem seriously... and be like i know i will never have a chance with someone like casey... but at least if i had a boy friend i wouldn't lie to him and where a braslete how has some other guys enishles on it but whatever she doesn't realize how good shes has it i would give anything to have someone like casey!!!i don't know i just feel like i will never find a guy... and according to katlin i can't do any better then trent and she think she is soo much better then me guess but whatever!
but it's also not just me two of my friend are havin boy trubbles too, like my friend chelsea she's been like obsessed with there freshman named seth and today when she went over to his house he was talkin to this other girl on the phone while she was there and he was being all mean to chelsea.even though he told chelsea that he really liked her.and so then when she went home she call him and was like trying to talk to him about it to find out what's goin on and he put on hold for like a half and hour then when she finally got through to him he was like sorry i can't talk past 10 even though he was talkin to that other girl at like 12 but i don't know i was talkin to chelsea about it and i was just like forget that little fucker u can find someone soo much better!!!!!!!!
then there's britt she likes these two boys and her friend tory all of a sudden started talking to them on the internet and was hitting on both of them and now out of know where tory is goin out with eric even though she knew britt liked him. geez some friend she is. that's why i would never go after a guy that my friend likes, like the saying goes chicks before dicks!!!!!!!!!!!
***OOO BOYS U CAN'T LIVE WITH THEM AND U CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT THEM*** |
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| CaNcEr WaLk |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|09:46 pm] |
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on friday i did the cancer walk i oner of u her dad. it was was sad seeing all those bags lit up and knowing that all those people have died or been through cancer and i was just happy i could go there to help!!! but i was also alot of fun because it was like an all night thing and like i was soo hiper/delerious i like couldn't stop laughing!!! and me and britt were like dancin and laughing and just havin a good time not caring what other people thought about us we were just havin some fun!!!!!!!!!!
i just wish that there were more people our age there maybe some hotties!!!wink!!!wink!!! lol because i'm still single and lookin lol hehehe and u never know where u will find mister right lol |
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| AwSoMe QuOtE |
[Jul. 29th, 2004|03:10 am] |
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Ins't it wried taht you can sltil raed tihs eevn tohugh the ltetres are mexid up? it's bceuase the hmuan mnid olny fcouses on the frsit and lsat ltetres of the wrod. it's like beauty people only pay attention to the outside.
***I FOUND THAT ON THE INTERNET AND I THOUGHT THAT WAS SOO COOL AND SOO TRUE*** |
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[Jul. 29th, 2004|12:11 am] |
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i'm kind of depressed like all of my friends have a guys/crushes and as far as i know there crushes like them back!!! God i just wish i had that ;( why can't i find a guy that likes me back? i'll never find the guy of my dreams i'll just have to face the fact that i will be alone forever;( huuummm life suck it seems like when ever i think something good is going to happen it always seems to go bad!!!
God it just seems like all of my guy friend look at danielle and brittany and are like WOW they are soooo HOT and they never take a second to look at me.and it kind of makes me sad that they just met danielle and they all already like her alot more then me.i don't know why i just feel like i am being replayed or u could say not wanted. i feel like i'm back in elementary school when everybody was to rapped up in danielle to even notice me ;(
!!!!!!!!!GOD I JUST WISH I COULD BE MORE LIKE DANIELLE AND BRITTANY THEN MAYBE MORE PEOPLE WOULD NOTICE ME!!!!!!!!!
∞Just There∞
Why do guys only like my friends and not me
I'm always the one in the background
Who has a tendency to stair
At the person I would rather be
I want to be seen
And have people that want to talk to me
Then just once be the girl that others want to be
And just have a hot guy for once look at me
But NO I'm the person people don't remember
I'm the person whos life faids away
Into the the darkness
In and out of heart
And in and out of mind
Basically all my life has been good for
Is to pass the time |
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